Well, the last time I wrote, I was reflecting on chapter 5 of the first book assigned to the team. Well, I finished the book as well as another book and now I am leaving the job I am doing. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job and I love the people we serve, I just didn’t like the person I was becoming. I’ve decided after this short time that I do not want to manage people. I don’t enjoy it, and I don’t like the person I become. I snap on my family members, I get annoyed at every little thing, I become frustrated very easily, and I do not want to do anything but vent. I am usually a pretty happy person, so this is not my normal state. I’m finished. I’m done with dealing with managing people and it’s one of the qualities I’ve found about myself. It’s a reflection and a step in the journey that I was not expecting.
In terms of reflection on my original goals, here’s where I am at…
I am becoming a great steward of money in the idea that my husband lost his job and we are still doing okay. I am switching to a new job, but that is okay with me because I will be able to find work somewhere else for the weekends as my second and third job are no longer available to me (conflict of interest). I’m excited to see where this takes me.
I am building money in retirement through my job and my savings account hasn’t been dipped into yet.
The hubs and I have been able to keep our house clean for a long period of time and it is second nature to us.
We are getting better about green living, but we are not completely there yet. We will continue to strive for this.
My dad’s illness doesn’t phase me any more. You see, I’ve used it as a crutch and I don’t want to do that any more. I’ve actually been a horrible person and have used my dad’s illness as an excuse to get out of things that I don’t want to do or I don’t want to face. While it pains me to admit that, I know that it needs to be admitted. My dad is pretty stable at the moment, however, I still need to be available to my family. This new career path allows for that without having to manage other people, scheduling, or being on call. These stresses of life will soon be eradicated with my new job, however, I am sure that new stresses will come.
I do have a new goal/journey to work on and that is a health journey. You see, I went to multiple doctors today and I got some feedback from those doctors. I am starting to experience changes in my left eye related to the changes my mom experienced at the onset of her glaucoma. We are watching this so that I do not end up with as many difficulties as she has had. I also went to the OB/GYN today for my annual exam and this annual exam ended with me asking my doctor about having children. I am overweight… extremely overweight, and I need to lose about 100-120 pounds before I should consider having children. This will be hard, however, I believe that I will be able to do it. I’ll start next week!
Wish me luck in my new career path (Starts on the 18th) as well as my new health journey!